Bad Dream

This week was bad news. Happy Birthday = kick in ass from world. ugh.

And last night I had a very elaborate dream about hanging out with people until i crashed and wounded myself and was limping around with a hurt knee. Not like that is very subtle but lets allow dreammoods.com to drive the point home. .

To dream that you are in a car crash, indicates that your beliefs, lifestyle, or goals are clashing with another's. It may also represent a shocking situation or painful experience. Alternatively, car crashes may forewarn of your dangerous or careless driving habits. To dream that you are limping, refers to a lack of balance in some relationship in your life. You feel that the relationship is one-sided. Perhaps you feel that you are giving more than you are getting back or vice-versa.

Some Kinda Love

Some kinds of love
Marguerita told Tom
Between thought and expression lies a lifetime
Situations arise because of the weather
and no kinds of love
are better than others
Some kinds of love
Margueirta told Tom
like a dirty French novel
the absured courts the vulgar
and some kinds of love
the possibilities are endless
and for me to miss one
would seem to be groundless
I heard what you said
Marguerita told Tom
And of course you're a bore
But at that you're not charmless
for a bore is a straight line
that finds a wealth in division
and some kinds of love
are mistaken for vision
Put jelly on your shoulder
Let us do what you fear most
That from which you recoil
but which still makes your eyes moist
Put jelly on your shoulder
lie down upon the carpet
between thought and expression
let us now kiss the culprit
I don't know just what it's all about
Put on your red pajamas and find out.
-Velvet Underground

Some Kinda Love

Bottom line. Kids just don't lay on the floor in the basement listening to their parents records enough anymore. That is the kind of foundation to build upon, I'm tellin ya.

in other news- 8 things or less

300th Post!!

and beginning of the pre-birthday weekend. lots to celebrate, eh?

Baker, Baker

Baker Baker
Baking a cake
Make me a day
Make me whole again
And I wonder
What's in a day
What's in you cake this time

I guess you heard
He's gone to LA
He says that beihnd my eyes I'm hiding
And he tells me I pushed him away
That my hearts been hard to find

Here there must be something
Here there must be something here here

Baker Baker can you explain
If truly his heart
Was made of icing
And I wonder
How mine could taste
Maybe we could change his mind

I know you're late
For you next parade
You came to make sure
That I'm not running
Well I ran from hime
In all kinds of ways
Guess it was his turn this time

Time thought I'd made friends with time
Thought we'd be flying
Maybe not this time

Baker Baker
Baking a cake
Make me a day
Make me whole again
And I wonder
If he's ok
If you see him say hi

Tori Amos

Spring Thing

Still

REALLY kicking myself for not ordering this bathing suit. I did get some new shorts today and a sweet T and a jacket. And you know what. I bought a headband too. My birthday is a week away so what the hay, right ..

Giving

Giving is better than receiving because giving starts the receiving process.
Jim Rohn

Generosity is giving more than you can, and pride is taking less than you need.
Kahlil Gibran

Giving up smoking is the easiest thing in the world. I know because I've done it thousands of times.
Mark Twain

When I chased after money, I never had enough. When I got my life on purpose and focused on giving of myself and everything that arrived into my life, then I was prosperous.
Wayne Dyer

The giving of love is an education in itself.
Eleanor Roosevelt

Your most precious, valued possessions and your greatest powers are invisible and intangible. No one can take them. You, and you alone, can give them. You will receive abundance for your giving.
W. Clement Stone

You start out giving your hat, then you give your coat, then your shirt, then your skin and finally your soul.
Charles de Gaulle

Kindness in words creates confidence. Kindness in thinking creates profoundness. Kindness in giving creates love.
Lao Tzu

Fantabulous

Koezelek Muzak

Summer Dress
Shock Me
Have you Forgotten

the light color in the room
the sunshine seeping in
doesn't mix with the black of
death's angel looming in
i've had enough of the
brutal beatings and name callings
to lose me to this bed
bruised internally
eternally
your praise little gifts you spent your money
and stuffed me with
didn't amount to anything
the attention i need is much more serious
a kind of weight you couldn't lift
even if your cheap career
depended on it
i need someone much more
mysterious
to be my miss
to be my mistress

Mistress
Carry Me Ohio Sun Kil Moon

So the warmer weather made me think of Summer Dress- I remember being 14 and listening to the Red House Painters. I spent a day downloading Mistress onto my imac from Napster. Just found out Mark Koezelek / Sun Kil Moon did an entire Modest Mouse cover album! holy balls.

Exit Does Not Exist
Dramamine
Ocean Breathes Salty

Globe Light

I just had the sudden urge to use ersatz in a sentence. .

Whats wrong?

Tea Time

I am in love.
With this kitchen and dining room. .

Moving Day

I just found some pictures I took last year when we were "spring cleaning"- rather, vacating our apartment after the cancer tornado hit. I documented well the items we were selling, and then put the camera down. Not sure why I didn't take at least one picture of my room, because it was adorable. Not sure why I didn't move the penguin out of the way. I was taking a picture of the rug.

Seems like the past 4 moves have been so abrupt there wasn't ever time to spruce up and notate the surroundings. Which is super depressing, since I rarely get to decorate anything (assholes). But once the boxes get picked up from the liquor store its all over. Once the Uhaul is rented its time to bust-ass. And the last time all I took was a backpack. Everything changes so quickly. Here I am in my blue room in SC with a pew and a hand-me down bed from a 7 year olds room. Who could have planned this? But I'm not bitter. Its pretty. (you'll see when I get a new camera for my birthday. ok?)

Shadow got this penguin from Anthropologie. One day we walked up the block to shop with hard earned Gap money- and he carried it home in his mouth.
(goodtimes)

Moo Chair

This picture makes my eyes happy.

Thats Life

All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.
Henry Ellis

I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.
E. B. White

I have a simple philosophy: Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches.
Alice Roosevelt Longworth

Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets.
Arthur Miller

Sometimes

i feel like this

Good